my morale has been badly affected by my MYE results.i failed english, i didnt score well in geog, CL and bio. i feel like a noob which i am.today is the 1st time i cried so long in this year. i was very disappointed with myself. i dont even c why is there a nid to score so high for a juz a subject, it is good to score high when it is useful like in CH and CS. my geog was a shit,i said that before that i dont want to take geography but they gave me that and i think i am really going to suffer :( right now i can only hope that my physics can be higher than B3 thn i can get A1 for science and also hope my ss can score more than 34.i think ss is the paper tt i put in a lot of effort but i think i will flunk since i received 7 papers today and good vs bad was 3-4 and i gt 2 more tt haven been took back.

it seems like i will be dropping on pure bio if i have a C.i scored a freaking low 67 which my MCQ help to pull me up but thn my essay haizzzzzzz juz like structure qns. suddenly the jump of chinese language standard from pri sch to sec sch took a huge step. i has been struggling to score A1 for that. usually in CT, is compre help me cos MCQ sux but tis time was MCQ ok but compre pull me down and i scored 49/70 thn compo all tis all fro. 31/50 and 13/20 haiz sian la. i feel so upset when a subject tt i like cant score an A1.i has been struggling for it and it seems that my CL result is like an active stock which can increase n fall bad bad :( if like tt, how can i score A1 in o lv but i cant even think of tt far nw cos i may not even be promoted to sec 4 nx year. i am always struggling with EL,the minimum i aim was at least a C6 and max B4 but i am having a nightmare in my sec 3 el years.my MYE i scored D7 where i failed the compre by 1m and free writing 2 marks and i end up scoring 49.833333333333333333333 :( i noe el is always my weakest subject but i dont really know wad to do.i has always been struggling in EL since primary school.i juz feel like a noob.

my MYE results sux bad bad,i aiming 4 subjects to score A1 , englich C5 and CH b3.the 4 subjects nw only gt 2.5 of it the 3rd depend on physics but i was pinning my hope on chinese to score A1 but as i say is a stock so is quite hard and compared to bio it has much easier chance but i still cant score :( thn my english is still noob and my CH sux bad bad and i dun even noe hw last year batch score A1 for geog n ss.rivers is a freaking complicated chapter to me but i wonder hw will natural veg be.i remember my el n cl teachers say tt our results will be fine after giving us the preparation test which we do but thn it was totally no gurantee. how i hope i graduated a long time ago with tt el paper :( i juz feel very upset with such a lousy result cos i disappointed them.i cried as i bath.


i just hope tt when SA2 come,those oral and listening compre can help me and nt be a burden on me. my morale for this saturday will be affected and also 29 may when it is meet the parent session.sry mum, i failed bad bad and didnt meet up to my expectation .

fug sia. i kana thrashed badly in all 3 games haiz this shows that i am still a noob afterall and i realise it makes me realise whr my mistake lies in. i was being thrashed by my benjamin loh 11-7,11-8,11-6 thn play against mr J4 and lose 3-1.GRRRR, i shld have won him but due to my smashing thn haiz. last game against mr BOO ZEN ( yuneng pri sch) tio thrash like siao but i shld have won the 2nd set T_T thx to his fugging serve i was being destroyed 3-0.

Overall,i played quite badly esp in smashing and receiving serve which i reallllllllly had to work on and also serving haiz. at least i didnt give up so easily when i was being thrashed like 6-0 but i managed to chase up but is nt enuff la.i was kinda jealous of some group that dun have all pros in tt group sia haiz no luck :(


Next up is to trainnnnnnnnnn harddd for the upcoming Lianhe zaobao bei which is single elimination and i suppose is going to start from round of 256 although only 112 ppl register for safra and if there is man double, i will also register with jon and is also hardcore study time

haiz have been scoring badly for my sec 3 tests :( perhaps i have been focusing on TT more than studies which i dont mind but i will try to catch up or i m nt used to sec 3 papers as in format and spa all these.The only CT that i think i put in the most effort in revising is Geog CT3 hopefully it wont disappoint me :) haiz sec 3 life is super tedious :( esp when i m going out(prob tmr)

he say that i wont win anyone but i dont mind cos i oso wan to know hw noob i am in the category and i wont make sure ppl will get past me easily as my determination was oredi up since a long time ago and also an experience for me to gain. the biggest threat still go to the YTSS guy if u participate and oso SSP or MHSS and alto alot alot frm the other zones.

was sad during the month of feb just be4 CNY and my 2nd day of cny was spent emo-ing cos i went pass that venue :( but they say everythg can be change in their reply which made me happy and cant wait for march but the risk is that i wont be on top form due to energy and concentration so i cant really exercise alot and have to sleep early the day be4 and i will also have to rush to there after school hopefully is 5pm reach school and nt 5 pm leave dere.

haiz disappointing game. i was very disappointed with them for their playstyle. once i though i will get my 1st B medal but thn fail haiz.

our china ace send us 1-0 up thn me n jon send pss 2-0 up bt the rest 2 singles n double lose thn we lose 3-2 "narrowly" haiz the **** opponent coach send up a weak pair of double against us perhaps if we play the 2nd the result wont be the same. the same thg happen twice when our 2nd double were leading 2-1 thn become 2-2 and thn they lose 3-2 the last single oso like that wtf. all like duno how to cur haiz is either cut out or cut undernet haiz we like won for nothing. i nt sad or emo now bt angry and disappointed only and so no B medal for me this year liao. and the chance of getting a medal nx year is very small cos of our china ace wan to transfer.i didnt get the chance to play against maris stella cos they wan put reserve but thn our china ace won them bt we lose 4-1. 1st time in hist tt we gain a pt from MS.

i intend to play 1 single against OPSS bt actually i wan play 3 single but thn if i play single jon will have to be reserve which i dont wan la so i think 1 is enough le bt not sure can thrash anot as is a preparation for me in my individual level this year and i cnt believe tt the 2 YTSS is still in C this year, is so WTF my u15 hope has come in threat i suppose if they join in.

Birthday over liao since last week, i actually wanted to be 18 this year or perhaps go younger like P6, i dun mind taking psle again lor LOL. if i were 18 nw i can be a volunteer while if i were 12 nw, i could be in the training squad but thn my p6 skill will cmi one compare to nw haiz.


i am still not so fit nw yet but i dont want to suffer any injuries during this crucial period and is just 5 more days left :) chances are 40-60

Resolution for 2010

1) make into the semis for both 3 events
2)good result
3) YOG volunteer

perhaps as simple as tt bt is hard to achieve. as of 2009 i failed totally bt if my 2009 result was 2010 one thn i would be much happier cos i have more pressure to cope with in 2010 and nt alot time to fool around liao and my studies sure will be messed up if i can be a YOG volunteer bt i dun mind cos is so called once is a lifetime bt thn i duno hw to be although they say register thru sch bt sch say nth abt it T_T . 2010 is juz a more challenging year for me n with greater responsibility bt i hope to make it a perfect year for me rather than 2009.

i like those foreign talent prog in sg whr they represent our country bt nw i dun like it liao as of our age. my coach recruited 1 15 years old china guy to play in B nx year the same with me so 1 player have to be omitted bt thn if he keep recruitin more china guy to play for us thn Singaporean for wad? i know tt it is good to play with china player cos they r more skillful bt thn it will be so unfair to us la hopefully my startin 7 place is still untouchable unless more or all china guy.

14 days more n i want to win my present myself