i duno what is happening to me recently, thgs doesnt seem to be in my way also n i even recall tt disappointing match after a long time w/o thinking of it. i once felt that i was one of the top players in N-zone but after tt thrashing i dun even think of that anymore and i really wanna train hard to get all the win out there.

i was kinda shocked and also disappointed with myself when i score my lowest ct score ever which was 10 although i knew it was literature but i didnt expect to score such a low mark with fail i expect my self to score like 15 like tt but i failed and this make me kinda worry abt my lit eoy paper cos i just want to keep a A1 for tt subject and mr tan say this test nt counted in CA which i kinda dun believe it but hopefully he keep his word if nt i am kinda over oredi. i found 2 reasons which led to this disaster and i knew is either something wrong with my brain or tt thg affecting me and i knew i have to find the answer asap n i thot i knew it when i receive my home econ paper but it wasnt n in fact it wasnt the mark i targeted at all so i was thinking a long time which paper i took first n in the end i think lit paper was the last i took so i couldnt find any answer but when i got back my el ct which was also nt tt good but i dun expect it at all so in the end i most likely confirm that it is tt thg that is affecting me but i cant 100% confirm until i get back my chinese paper.

i just realise tt i start to hate attention seeker and ppl who r scare of lonely cos when is like when i just woke up or wad thn these ppl who hate silent will talk sth which is irritating for me la but is when i m feeling ok or high thn ti would be ok. as for those attention seeker i totally cant stand it, when i was doing work or listening thn this ass will make some noise just to get the attention of someone, i wouldnt mind it at all if i am far away from him or i cant hear it but is just too annoying for me to accept it. i also knew tt i am a person who dont dare to voice out myself like to play stage game or others.


ytd went out for dinner at mac and after the meal i went to jollibean n wanting to bought a pancake n there was a couple in front of me be4 a lady barge in n say what she want and i thot what a singaporean but thn she ask the auntie to serve the couple first thn the auntie go prepare her order thn she ask her to serve me first which i kinda appreciate it, she find reasons to say to serve me first like i look like i m in a rush which i was nt but thn i say nvm but she just insist on her principles so i had to accept it and thx her n she gave me a smile back. i find it kinda rare to see this type of person who insist on their principles and a good singapore citizen after all haha.

today was last day of gca so just went to c c and be4 even reaching there i was like feeling tired liao the underway walk to there thru city link mall was superrrrrrrr long somemore the escalator move at a "very fast"speed so sometime i decide to take the stair if the distance is short la. while on the way there it re capped me the way tt i last time went to marina square for bowling but at least these time got signs to help me n i managed to reach suntec city thn at there i still have to walk a long way be4 i found the escalator n there oso recapped my NDP time at marina bay tt time. the escalator this time the speed was also same at the citylink mall de so when i was shocked when i took my phone out cos the time was 3.25pm like tt and i leave home at 2.15 juz to reach there earlier to catch the final but the speed of the escalator doesnt seem to help at all.i managed to reach there successfully but at the expense of going up till the 4th lv thru the escalator. i managed to found the iah booth quite easy cos when i juz went in after registration, i saw the stage where the ivp final is going to start it was between dinofrost n racerfx la,i didnt really focus on the match becos i went to get the quest card to do. as a fifa fan, i obviously started the quest with the FOL2 n i only manage to complete the quest thru the 2nd try after my 1st try was being saved by the relaxing gk thn i went to granado espada quest area where 2 girls dressed up in the costume and i just queue la. the quest was to get the correct card out of the 3 where she place the card first thn she keep n mixed it and in the end i guess it correctly just the 1st try n her expression was kinda funny with the smile maybe kinda surprised? haha. nx i went to the shooting quest and i managed to shoot in the area after the 2nd try n i was kinda surprised cos my first shoot i just aim in the area w/o closing one of my eye n i hit the upper left of the board which was a miss thn the 2nd shoot i shoot in the targeted area n i was shock cos i was aiming the lowest area w/o closing my eye again cos got 3 try thn when i shoot it went to the top of it which was also counted as a targeted area instead of the lower area so is kinda WEIRD man. thn i went to the challenging dragonica de where i nid to blow the thg up n in the end i get my stamp but failed to blow it up la haha they all force until cannot force de like cannot give up but i did the impossible haha thn i just tear the paper away, write my particular on it be4 throwing it to the lucky draw box thn after tt i just went to the stags nearby n watch the match n in the end dinofrost won 4-1 kinda impressive. thn i juz walk around after tt be4 they intend to give out the prize thn i juz went and there was alot ppl filming the process n i was being filmed as audience although duno which channel la thn after the ivp ceremony it was the lucky draw which i join in and the person said tt if the 3rd n 2nd prize winner nt present thn the prize still is still them de while if the 1st prize winner nt here they will continue until the person is here and sad to say the 2nd n 3rd really nt present while the 1st was present , my heart thn had a arrow shot in like tt cos it was a laptop and the 3rd prize i oso like it but nt the 2nd.i spent sometime there after the draw n thn went back home after really have nth to do.

i seem to get more tired as the day go past but only until friday thn is FREE time haha.i cant believe that i spend all my energy on ping pong juz nw which make me left half dead going back home.I was relieved when this week is going to past cos i have cleared all the CT hurdles but out of a sudden there is like 3 nx week haiz but it would be the last cos the last final n impt hurdles will come soon. at least tmr is fri and i can play as mad as i can while i just wanna smash shuttlecock this sat, it has been 2 weeks since i last smash in a good place with good shuttlecock n a good "bat". as for now is just 105 days away from 2010 which i really want it badly cos i believe it would be an exciting one which i really hope and my first hurdle will be on feb while nw i have to focus on exam le cos is the only thg left for me to achieve after a disappointing career and is on 1st oct while be4 that would be F1~~ ALONSO~~.

i was kinda relieved when i knew stags home matches are just like in between my exam days and after it, it feel great but nw nt great with 3 key players playing in the indonesia league haiz so nw stags shld be quick weak in attacking and i really wonder what would happen w/o sutee but hopefully they can clinch on to 2nd or just do the impossible by winning the title.

i knew is juz a matter of time be4 i get it but it was so so late thn i kana it-fever. it ruin my holiday when i can go out,watch match at jb stadium and play sports but these thg happen on tues morning 12am+ when i was abt to sleep zz so wtf and it took me around 2-3 days to recover which is nt sth tt i like cos usually it just take 1-2 days for me to recover from fever so i c docs for 2 time overall 3 in the year la and i finally knew the reason why it took so long n is due to the h1n1 n fever became common n will take a longer time to recover *(&$51&^%$#2!. it was obviously a bad thg to rem la cos i was as hot as 39.6 (going to 40) and during tt period i was kinda scare tt i will be hot till burn my brain due to the slow recovery.

as for now i still have alot hw to do n i think i will be failing my geog paper le, will nt be going to cca for mon and today also cant go haiz but will go for a haircut.

i seriously hope nt to say this again "2009 sux for me" again cos this the year tt alot crap n disaster happen to me and the most i went to c a doctor man. i am juz 110 days away but i will be counting down when 100 mean 10 days past.

ytd was a super tiring day. i slept at 2am on sat before waking up at 7.15am thn start to on comp n play fifa before i stop ltr. thn i call haziq to confirm the time n venue. left my house around 8.35pm thn bus came 8.45 pm and i reached hougang interchange at 9.10am n we was suppose to meet at 9am but i wasnt late, he reached at 9.22am-"so early" thn just take mrt till dhoby thn transfer to red line thn take till somerset. we managed to walk out of the mrt station cos we have been there once be4 thn i walked with him till cineleisure n took the lift till 9th floor.when we was at E2 MAX, it was like so quiet cos is like no one until someone told us"here for the changkat cc yec?" thn we said yes n he told us to register at the counter there.wrote our name n other info n they gave us a booklet n a voucher.thn here come the boring ceremony start. they siad they need a blabla n a second blabla to confirm the information be4 the MP come which was tampines MP with other guests including my pri sch principal thn she said alot of thgs which make sense into my mind thn after that it was free 2h of console n cpu usage. haziq n me just chiong to cpu that have fol2 n we started to play FOL2 with each other in WT till 12+ before we start to register for the lan.talked alot abt tactics before the lan started.luckily we was not the first to be called n tt time we knew our opponent was strong.

we played against them after 15 mins n until 10 mins of the game, we got a corner n 0-0 thn haziq dc so wtf thn wait quite awhile be4 everythg was ok thn when until the team squad i found tt my black card effect was gone WTF thn have to continue w/o it lor in the end lost narrowly 3-1. was kinda angry with haziq la but at least better than last time.after tt we shoke hand with the opponents thn i went for lunch at KFC n haziq went back home.

after finishing my meal, i went bac there for awhile n leave le thn went back to tampines n buy some snacks at T1. Reached home around 3+ thn went to do the necessarily preparation ltr n leave home at 6.10pm thn a bus just came n chased for it successfully.reached changi simei cc around 7pm+ thn went to explore around cos 7.30 thn our time. we found alot of good thgs abt this place-there an eatery just beside the cc, got air con in 1st level , got cpu to use but duno how to unlock. thn we went back to the court n saw a bunch of youngsters training with their coach n all was kinda strong but duno we can compared with them anot cos of age different. when 7.30pm, just played with thomas till 7.45 take a break while i c others play n all this go on till 9.40+ before i was tired after playing a mad game thn went to the eatery.ate hor fun n drank QOO thn we went off around 10.30+ n i reached home 11pm like that n once again packed off everythg n bath thn on comp to check the WC games n score but was kinda disappointing that the points are nt updated till nw.

i think that august just pass so slow, meanwhile is sep nw n i have 2 months more to go before it's the end of school.it would be the time for me to gear up next year n no time to waste if not i would end up in disappointment again bt nx year i believe i have 2 to go.it took me 5-6 months to get out of the misery and i really hope not to see history being re acted again. i am just 1 month away from my EOY which i am waiting but i am scared i would fall which i cant cos it is my last goal to achieve, i dun wan to end 2009 with no goals being reached at all, it would make me feel very pain.how i hope my sec 1 thg can keep on repeating where i achieve both 2 goals for the first time in a year but as for the future i really duno, i just want to work hard n continue doing the thgs i like.

i was feeling so tired ytd before i slept at 2am+ after being able to hear the 2 shark together hosting cos it was first in a long time.. Recently, it has been raining and is a weather that i just like it but i prefer it to rain on sat late afternoon til dawn.meanwhile, i still have a geog hw to settle which i duno how to do n a long busy week finding me which start today.